.. anxious ..

Me: I’m feeling nervous trying to be so perfect cause I know he's worth it ...If I could say what I want to say I'd say I wanna blow him away... Be with him every night; am I squeezing him too tight? If I could say what I want to see I want to see him go down on one knee and ask me to be his woman today. It don’t do me any good it’s just a waste of time what use is it to him. What’s on my mind if ain’t coming out. We’re not going anywhere, so why can’t I just tell him that I care...What’s wrong with my tongue these words keep slipping away I stutter, I stumble like I’ve got nothing to say

Lyra: Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so, you apologize for truth.

(late night conversation with mommy through texting - 00.30wib)