.. #YOLO ..

.. it's been a while i haven't touch this page. got many stuff in my head, i can't even think where to start. the one that pop into my head now, many people asked me "why don't you have a boyfriend?" or "'till when you want to be single?" or "where is the invitation" and my response is still the same "is coming..."

for me, to be single is not a problem. because its really the time we have to get good at being alone. drive anywhere without anyone permission (of course, in my case i still need to ask my parents permission on this), shop anything without any hesitation from others opinion, watch any movies without any argument what movie that we want to watch, eat everything without asking any recommended places that one might want to visit?

I'm good at being alone i guess, but the question is that do I really want to be single? until when?
Because, most people told me there's a danger that i'll be so good at being single, so it will set my ways that i'll miss out the chance to be with someone great out there.

well, is not that i don't want to be commit with someone, its just my thought being committed will be the end of my "me time", travelling anywhere i want, or buying stuff whatever i want without anyone permission. Yea yea yea it sound like i'm controlling myself to much! but thats the fact thou.

if people asked "don't you missed some guy text or phone call to ask how are you? or how's your day? or even what's for lunch?" i might response "well, is not a genuine question for me!" why would some guy used those pick up lines to open a conversation? its 2016 .. do guys still used those pick up lines? i might be to hard on myself or some people say "I'm to independent" but in my defensed i tried to be on those guys shoes.

If they can treat women like that, where those question to guys seems to lame, i can be that person too? have you heard a guy who bluntly ditch a girl because she's to good? oh well who wants to date a bad person? or some guys ignoring phone calls or texts from a girl who wants to know whats happening with him, i can be that guy too ..

as for now, being single is not a problem or issue for me. I don't need to compete with anyone to have a plus one in myself. Yes, i'm looking but not desperate. i own social media but not for people to know that "i'm open market" i'm not against matchmaking process, but the way i see it the one who knows what i'm looking and what i need is myself not other people! so safe your time to find me the "right person".

i do believe, when the time is right the right companion is on his way! ..