.. My Point of View ..

.. here we go, i'm keeping my emotion away from people whom i think is selfish. What i meant about selfish here is that this person required people to understand their feeling and sensitivity but the fact they cannot compromise with others.

kalau mau di jabarkan, ingin di mengerti tapi mereka tidak mau mengerti. no vice versa?? how can they socialize ya? That's the first thing that pop up in my head. The more i learn and observe about people, then i understand ... most of the time people around this person will fake it, in other words they will become a pretentious people or they will just be whatever that makes you happy ... what i can conclude all people around this kind of person are fake.

at first i never see it coming, but then i realize .. this how this person treat others. This person pushing people to understand her and know what this person been through. But, this person forget that other people have their own problems and situation. This person is been judgmental over something and react as if this person is an expert of the situation then this person will start analyzing in this person perspective ... no no no. You can't analyze every situation and problem in your own perspective and expect people to accept it. it's now how it works. simple thing with this person will become something that might disappoint this person. Yes i was there to give my ears, but the more i know about the situation from this person side, the more i know how selfish this person is. Why can this person take everything in a positive thought ...? not everything should be in everything we want right?

Example:
I asked simple question, is not that i don't know the answer i'm just trying to be "dumb" and asked about this un-important question to make a conversation ... and this person response it as if i know nothing at all. What on earth ..?? is just a simple topic to start a light conversation to talk about, is not about showing how broader your knowledge is ... as for me, i don't like to be seen as a smart person, it will be a burden. I let people judge me on that ... rather than me shouting about it! Then this person could intentionally judge people over something .. ohh boy!! This person expect a lot from people around this person! This person needs understanding, but this person can not be flexible?? *sigh*

I'm the kind of person who doesn't like to confront people, i know that my mouth is so harsh with words. But, i try my very best not to use it to push people to understand me .. i let people around me to be who they are, i will not force them to understand me i let them to be part of my "growing" process.

This person telling everything about me, which i hate it! me is all me, i shared my story to this person because i trust this person .. not for this person to have a press conference and open all of my stories to people that i don't barely know .. i ain't celebrity or superstar, my story are not for public consumption! Luckily i can manage my emotion over this, i don't want to start another argumentation over this.

This person, going through my stuff ... WHAT?! even my own parents and siblings never did that .. we're related in blood but we respect our personal belongings! And this person is like ripping off my personal belonging to other??? Sweet Lord!! I never even touch this person personal belonging, why on earth this person did that to me?? does this person know what "personal belonging" stand for??

I'm so grateful, i can keep my anger away with my adjustable emotion. I still learning to be flexible and being compromise for every situation. and every time i made a conversation it turns out that this person "judge" me with this person perspective. I see that this person can not accept any different opinion, everything has to be in this person perspective, this person can not tolerate any differences over an opinion for everything, is like "I KNOW EVERYTHING WELL ENOUGH!" again *sigh*

luckily i'm not so much a social media person who puts every anger and emotion through status or what ever on social media. I keep all the anger, happy thoughts and sadness in my own space ..