.. maturity ..

 .. I don't know the actual meaning of maturity, but what i know maturity can not guarantee by our age. I learn that maturity when someone hurt you, I accept not to hurt them back, in fact I learn to understand their situation and put myself on their shoes. For some reason, if i want to win an argument i feel that i'm so immature, because i've been told that mature people understand that it's always better to lose an argument and win a situation.

"Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect and treat you bad. Let God deal with things they do, cause hate in your heart will consume you too." - Will Smith 

Agree with Will Smith, because maturity begins when we're content to feel we're right about something, without feeling necessity to prove someone else wrong. Let people judge, don't judge based on our assumption or our perspective better to have others to judge rather than using our voice to raise our perspective.

Even when I feel used by people i know best, i just smile and be thankful that I'm still useful for others. I cried and hurt, because i feel that way, i force myself not to feel that way because it will bring my negative thought toward anyone around me. But .... again i can't control my surrounding i don't know their intention toward me. Perhaps I'm the one who lead them to use me.

I force myself to understand the reason behind it, why they did that to me, why do they even have a heart to do such thing. Or perhaps I'm to sensitive to think that way, i really forcing myself to be better and understand more the reason behind it. I have my own limitation, there comes a point in life where I get tired to understand the situation to chase everyone and tried really hard to fix things. Well, i'm just about to give up and not give a damn shit to all those things! I just want to realize i'm done with the drama they bring!

 A sign of maturity itself, is try to know that you are going to be wrong (well, we're not perfect aren't we?). Understand that we do need people to correct us, and that not everything should be taken as an offense on our character.

"Don't try to understand everything, because sometimes it is not meant to be understood, but to be accepted" - point taken