.. anger ..

“It takes two people to make a lie work: the person who tells it, and the one who believes it.”

The 6th day is already passed away, the anger keep inside of me. It feels really hurt! Is not the anger of being hurt, is the anger because of the truth did not reveal.

"why? why? why?" only those words that keep playing around my head! once again "why?"
I shouldn't get angry, I shouldn't be upset or what so ever. But, the thinking on my head keep running try to solve the puzzle with my own thinking.

gw gak akan bertanya, gw gak akan mencari tahu. Buat gw kalo orang gak mau cerita, pastinya mereka gak mau di tanya kan? *sigh* kesel, marah, kecewa, sedih, kehilangan ... semua campur aduk kaya adonan di dalam sini.

Gak bolehkah gw tau keadaan sebenarnya? tidak bisakah gw tau kondisi apa yang sedang di hadapinya? Penderitaan apa yang di rasain? Walopun mungkin gw gak bisa bantu banyak, at least gw bisa membantu untuk bisa memberikan bantuan moril kan?

Gw emang gak bisa bantu banyak, gw gak punya apa-apa untuk bisa meringankan semuanya. Tapi setidaknya gw bisa hadir ketika seorang teman butuh kehadiran teman, butuh teman berbagi dan berbagi penderitaan. Mungkin memang sudah terlambat..walopun kadang ingin gw bisa berkata "I wish I could turn back time, and make everything in place"

I guess that won't be happened! Ya mungkin emang kadang penderitaan dan masalah tidak semua bisa di bagi ya? Sekarang yang gw tau bagaimana rasanya menjadi orang yang "left behind"

Semoga kemarahan dan kekecewaan ini akan pergi dengan sendirinya. May he rest in peace up there. I'm not mad at anyone, I'm just mad of myself ... because I'm the last one to know about (well, even is only a bit) everything. Sad ... yes, but yea..something might happened on the way to heaven!