.. me ..

Yesterday someone told me:

You are a motherly person. You need extra effort to find your match. Kalau elo dapet lelaki itu biasa-biasa aja, bakal abis elo libas. Kalau dia hebat, dia akan semakin hebat lagi karena elo.

Analoginya : Just like a mother who likes to taking care of everything, every little thing. You build them from nothing to something, you give your ears to listen to every stories and grumbles, after they succeed some of them may forget about you, but you never mentioned it. You do it because you care, because you know good people will always bring good will in your life.

Tapi kadang loe lupa, menjadi seorang "mother" kadang bisa sangat menyakitkan jika loe tahu bahwa perhatian itu tak pernah terlihat nyata ... Nyata menurut loe, tapi bukan bagi orang yang loe sayang ... Loe akan sakit, loe akan kecewa dan jatuh terpuruk.

Ikhlas dan Pasrah mungkin adalah salah satu jalan yang bakal di ambil, tapi tidak dengan ikhlas kekecewaan loe akan hilang. Rasa gak bisa di duga datangnya, kecewa bisa terlihat dan terasa, tapi jika perasaan itu sudah ada...gak ada yang sanggup utk bisa melepaskan kerelaannya. Sakit akan terus menghantui jika kekecewaan itu tetapi terpatri di hati.

Jika ingin kecewa itu pergi, ikhlaskan hati, pasrahkan perhatian loe untuk diri loe sendiri. Sometime what you need is only your own time for yourself, you never taking any moment for your self. You're to busy taking care other people, you put lots of effort to make people happy especially the one you care ... but ...

You often forget how to make yourself happy, trust me people will happy to see you happy; As they see you smiling and laughing every time you always around for them no matter what.

(Lily Fadlyani - Dec, 2008)