... king of wishful thinking ...

I don't need to fall at your feet
Just cause you cut me to the bone
And I won't miss the way that you kiss me
We were never carved in stone

And If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself
I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my ships not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
Because I am the king of wishful thinking

I refuse to give into my blues
That's not how its gonna be
And I deny the tears in my eyes
I don't wanna let you see, no

That you had made a hole in my heart
And now I've got to fool myself
I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my ships not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you

Because I am the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my ships not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
Because I'm the king of wishful thinking

If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself
I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my ships not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
Because I'm the king of wishful thinking
I am the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you I know I will
You made a whole in my heart
But I won't shed a tear for you
I'll be the king of wishful thinking

I'll get over you I know I will
I'll pretend my hearts still beating
Cause I've got no more tears for you
I am the king of wishful thinking

.. parting ..

This is for my people who just lost somebody
Your bestfriend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hands way up high

I know you're gone, I know i'll see you again
One thing that I can promise, that we gon' meet up again
Hopefully up in heaven, prayin' that i'm forgiven
For everything that i've done, and everything I forgot to mention
If feel so bad to remember all the things I've been doing or said ...

And every since you've been absent i've been taking lots of lessons
Why does our life cycle round like a trophy
Even though know somebody took the time to warn me
That you just keep me 'til the end it's just crazy
And everyday i'm wishin' you could come save me
And I know I ain't supposed to cry
It's taken all the strength in my soul to say goodbye

And you never got the chance to see how good i've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I remember when you used to send me message at night or late night call
I thought I were so strong

It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry

As time goes by
And soon as you find a better person
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
The hardest thing to do is say bye, bye

How come they call it goodbye?
How come the good should be the one whose hurt?
That I had with my pops, he was a good guy

And I tell him I love him until I tell him bye
And whenever I shall ever leave, I hope you celebrate it
I hope you never hated, and they say being apart is gated
But I think I know the code, and let's get your life right
By the end of the road, that's why I drive alone down memory lane
So if I crash I hope ya'll remember me!

It's hard to say bye, bye, bye, bye

(Bye Bye - Mariah Carey feat. Akon & Lil Wayne)

.. N 73 in memoriam ..

I join the queue on your answer phone and all I am is holding breath
Just pick up I know you're there
Can't you hear? I'm not myself

Well, go ahead and lie to me you could say anything. Small talk will be just fine
Your voice is everything. We owe it to love, and it all depends on you

So listen up
The sun hasn't set, I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling
Just hear me out. I'm not over you yet
It’s love on the line, can you handle it?

So how do I do normal? A smile I fake the permenant wave of cue-cards and fix-it kits
Can't you tell? I'm not myself

I'm a slow motion accident. Lost in coffee rings and fingerprints. I don't wanna feel anything but I do and it all comes back to you

So listen up. Look at me straight. Just hear me out
Don't make me wait. I'm not myself. I can't take this
Love's on the line. Is that your final answer?

... Moral of the statement above is I just lost my other cell N73, well that cell was my memoriam. Feel glad I lost it..meaning I don't have to save any phone books anymore...what can I do now, is re arrange the list of my phone books, for sure this time is going to be the choosen one!

Good bye N73..it was nice to have you for almost 2 years...well, I guess I have to prepared to browse another one! Bet this time is going to be GREAT one!!

.. miss independent ..

Got this song from one of my friend..well guess it was only his admiration toward some women yaaaa....Trying not to buy most of the words...Since I'm not that kind of woman .. people might think that way, but as for me "I AM WHAT I AM".

*in-denial mode on*

" Is something about ... Just something about the way she move
I can't figure it out . It's something about her

Say, is something about ... Kinda woman that want you but don't need you
I can't figure it out it's something about her

'Cause she walk like a boss ... Talk like a boss
She's fly effortlessly ... And she move like a boss ... Do what a boss
She got me thinking about getting involved ... That's the kinda girl I need.

She got her own thing ... That's why I love her
Miss independent
Won't you come and spend a little time
She got her own thing ... That's why I love her
Miss independent
The way you shine ... Miss independent

There's something about ... Kinda woman that can do for herself
I look at her and it makes me proud ... There's something about her

Something so sexy about ... Kinda woman that don't even need my help
She said she got it, she got it. No doubt, there's something about her ...

'Cause she work like a boss ... Play like a boss. Car and the crib she 'bout to pay 'em both off ... And bills are payed on time.
She made for a boss ... Slowly a boss. Anything less she telling them to get lost
That's the girl that's on my mind

Her favorite thing to say, don't worry I got it
And everything she got best believe she bought it
She gon' steal my heart ain't no doubt about it, girl
You're everything I need ... Said you're everything I need

Miss independent
That's why I love her"

(Miss Independent - Ne Yo)

... invisible ...

A conversation between friend in a place called TIM HORTON's at Wonderland Rd North...

Me: Tell me your greatest desires.
Him: Tell me a secret.
Me: Isn't that the same thing?
Him: Almost, but anyone can see your desires. No one knows what's in your heart.

Him: Love does things for reasons that reason cannot understand.

Him: I haven't said I care for you since your birthday.
Me: That's a fact, not a secret.
Him: The secret is, I still want to.

.. for love of the game ..

Me: I don't know if I have anything left.
Mr. A: You just throw whatever you got, whatever's left. We're all here for you. You're gonna be awesome right now!
Mr. C: We're all here for ya, we'll back you up, we'll be there, cause, we're not fake. You're the best buddy we have, right now, right this minute, and everything is because of you. You're the reason. We're not gonna screw that up, we're gonna be awesome for you right now.


Me: So, when you're away, I'll live my life and you'll live yours. And none of this stupid bullshit "why didn't you call me?" crap. And "what you do when you're not with me has nothing to do with me" and vice versa. No questions asked, no worrying, no obsessing.
Mr. B: That sounded perfect.

Me: You ever gotten your heart broken?
Mr. B: Yeah. When I lost the Air Jordan 1990.

Me: I used to believe, I still do, that if you give something your all it doesn't matter if you win or lose, as long as you've risked everything put everything out there. And I've done that. I did it my entire life. I did it with the choosen one. But I never did it with him, I never gave him that. And I'm sorry. I know I'm on really thin ice but, when I said I didn't need him... It wasn't because I weren't there. So I just wanted to tell him, not to change his mind or keep him from going, but just so he know, that I know, that I do need him.

Me: It's never quite how you play it in your head.
Mr. B: What about the whole deal thing?
Me: What deal?
Mr. B: You know, you do what you do, I do what I do.
Me: You believed that? I was lying. I was trying to be the man. And I was doing a damn good job of it until he invited me to his heart. You were right. I was afraid. I was afraid he was gonna break my heart into 1,000 pieces.

Mr. A: You're always there when we're invisible, now it's the time for us to see you visible.. being visible is not that bad...You often see invisible person, so it's time for people to see the real you!!

(Hope his going to be the perfect one)