.. Urge ..

Fourth word in this year, Urge=very strong desire.

I might not define it in correct way, i've got my own way to define any words in my own way :)
Why i came up with this word, because i feel this word is often used every time i will go travel or going to some places.

'can you buy .....' or 'can i order ...' it might sound like 'is it ok if you look for...' geez... I've been mentioned i hate when people giving me an order, and now people asking for a favor without giving me any option how to pay? Is not that i don't want to buy things for people; i love buying things for people, but i hate when people asking for it. And giving their preference ... If you're important to me i surely will buy you something .. Just don't ask, don't be demanding.

Unless you have something i want i would be fine, but if not don't expect i would give a sh*t about any less of you!!

.. Left over ..

leftover [ˈlɛftˌəʊvə] n
an unused portion or remnant.

Most of people will throw them away, because they don't want to eat the left over. Consideration is the taste and the appearance of it will not be as stunning as the first time.
If you asked me what will i do with my left over, well i will eat them i will put it on the microwave to heat it up and eat it while its still hot. Perhaps it taste not so good but well i fell blessed i still can taste it though.

X: What do you do with the flowers?
Y: You know the ones that nobody wants?
X: So you're giving them a second life?
Y: Yeah, most chaps throw them away. I like the idea that tomorrow somebody's going to see them floating by, wonder where they come from, behind the mystery of it all. I used to, actually, put them together and practice new designs with them and drop them off at a random doorstep with notes in it: "Somebody out there loves you". And they get to thinking, "What if they found out that somebody me? Would they want me to be the one that loves them?"
X: I would... want that.
-- Valentine's day --

.. giveaway ..

another word i'm aware for this year, a gift which we all aware the definition of this word. tr.v. gift·ed, gift·ing, gifts : to present (something) as a gift to (a person). honestly, i love the activity of searching or looking a gift for someone especially for my friend. i never find any difficulties for this. it seems that i can read people's mind of what they want and what they really need. i may say it's my "gift". only few people or i may say not so many people knows me that well. i usually hate the concept of present for myself. i prefer to give myself my own giveaway on my "day". most of people (i mean even the close one) they don't really know what i want, what i need. so they just give me a present that sometimes beyond what i expected.

is not that i hate their presents, but the presents should represent our character right? what we like? what we need? isn't supposed to be like that? 10 years ago, i've got this Easter bunny present for my birthday. in my mind, i'm wondering this person knows i don't celebrate Easter (even though it's close to Easter) and i'm not christian as well. since, that easter bunny chocolate came from some one "special" i'm thankful, at least he had an effort to look for something on my birthday. :)

then two years ago, and last year (if i'm not mistaken) i got a girly cardigan, well everyone can guess i would never wear that things, even on my formal occasions. it's just not me, and many more gift that become a waste for me. it's not that i hate the present, i appreciate their thoughts and i appreciate their effort.

but, if they keep giving me the things which is not "me" i won't even care to wear it or putting it in somewhere that i could see. it definitely will goes to my drawer and become my un-seen collection. that's why i always knows what people need, what people want and understand people's character for their gift. i'm enjoying the moment people wear and used what i gave to them, it feels blessed to know "see i know what they want!" my tips, if you want to but a gift for people please start to consider what they like, what is their character and more importantly what they need. happy browsing for a gift people!!

.. reaching the edge ..

"every new day is another chance to be a better person than you were the day before"

what a perfect day to begin, new age, new day, new beginning and yet new habit! there will be no stamp on my passport for today like what i used to do before ... it's like yearly traveling moment during this day. i have almost every year stamp for today date!

like people said, there's always a first time for everything right?
it takes forever to be young though, but it like one day to be grow up! i wish i could be mature enough and grow up for the rest of my life!

if you asked me what do i wish for this year .. well do i need to mention it? still the same wish from the last year thou .. :). i'm not rushing it, i believe if it meant to happen it will happen.

have a blast for myself, taking notes for myself, lesson learned and i will be more wise (hopefully)

Thank you to all family, friends and colleagues.

“The secret to staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.” -- Lucille Ball

.. opportunist ..

another word i learn this year, (n) opportunist - a person who places expediency above principle or it can be (adj) opportunist - taking immediate advantage, often unethically, of any circumstance of possible benefit.

for me this word is not giving any positive impact or attitude for anyone.this opportunist who profits from misfortunes of others, i'm avoiding meeting this kind of person. most of opportunist person will have two faces (in other word we can say poker face i guess).

most of them are selfish, they only think about themselves. what can please me that's what i'm aiming for .. guess that's their motto thou. they talked what they want to talk, they say what they want to say just to please their service, just to please their possible benefit.

they can be nice until they got what they want, but they can be very annoying if they feel in-secure about their position, we can't guarantee if their word is true of at the end their words can be a back fire.

i really really avoiding this kind of person.