.. easy ..

Some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity.

No matter what our achievements might be, we think well of ourselves only in rare moments. We need people to bear witness against our inner judge, who keeps book on our shortcomings and transgressions. We need people to convince us that we are not as bad as we think we are.. even though we know we're a bad person for some reason.

.. The Social Network ..

2011 is a year of ignorance for me. I will force myself to be selfish!

I have to concern more, on how I feel, and how I will react toward anything! I won't care about what people concern and reaction for all my actions! I know the bad things about knowing everything is not good for me, I knew it in a first place already.

Silence is the best solution to support my selfishness this year!

" How many times can we turn our heads and pretend we cannot see. "

.. sakura romance ..

“Everyone has the right to believe and accept what he or she wants, but reality doesn’t discriminate. Reality is not different for different people. Not once has reality excused anyone for good intentions ignorance or stubbornness. Reality shows no mercy, accepts no excuses, and issues no pardons.”

I have my own believe and I have my own way to accept anything that I want. Reality is just reality and the definition of the reality itself remain the same thou .. different people will take the definition with different thought, whose to blame? NO ONE!

Every little thing I do, I hope it will brings goodness inside of me, I never thought I would give any good impact to people around me. Well, who am I anyway. I will do good, for people whose been good, as for some bad people ignorance is the best word for them. I don't really give any "shit" to those people. Since, I'm not good at all (I mean in my understanding).

Gossips, rumors, wussy wussy words .. I'm listening, but I never care that much. Well, I always be the center of the attention, I can ignore that. Lot's of people can't take their eyes of me thou ... :)

Through the good and the bad words for me..I'm still me! so BE IT!!

.. work it out ..

“I know exactly how that is. To teach somebody who doesn’t deserve it. Because they are all you have. Because any attention is better than no attention. For exactly the same reason, it is sometimes satisfying to cut yourself and bleed. On those gray days where eight in the morning looks no different from noon and nothing has happened and nothing is going to happen and you are washing a glass in the sink and it breaks-accidentally-and punctures your skin. And then there is this shocking red, the brightest thing in the day, so vibrant it buzzes, this blood of yours. That is okay sometimes because at least you know you’re alive.”

the least I can say is LISTEN. Is it to much? Stop defending with wussy wussy words that I don't even asked. All I'm asking is only simple questions, and I don't expect long answers without any points.

No wonder, lots of people will get mis-perception over something. They get panic, they get frustrated, depressed, stress .. and many more. Because, they wont listen, they don't know how to sort words from other people. In my understanding of listen is when you talk with people the flow of it would be listen-digest-understand-response .. is not that hard isn't it?

Lately, only few people who know exactly how listen in proper way.

.. 2011 ..

As always.. I never make any resolution or list for each years I passed. For me.. Let it be. Why do I need any list of plans if most of it alredy been planned by our creator. Well, is not that I’m un-planned person, I’m well organized for almost everything. I will feel pissed if something is not in the right track. I hate un-consistent people, people who doesn’t respect other people time, people that change in very last minute.

People will make long list for this new year, for me just be it. That’s why my parents name me after a song called Que Sera Sera — what ever will be will be. What people say about me just let it be, people have their own thought. For people who scolded me behind my back, be grateful meaning they do care about me thou. For people who hate me, thanks for sharing their blessing through hate in their heart.

For people who treated me unkind, may all the kindness always be a part of my journey. People who lied to me, through all the lies I heard I know the truth is always taking a big role in my life. People who thought that I’m their competitors I’m thankful that my heart is bigger than any opponents I have in life.

I’m so grateful through all this year my parents, my family, my lil crews always support me and giving their shoulder for me to lay on. Have a great 2011 people!!!