.. coming out ..

"Everything happens for the best. You'll never know if you don't try"

different point of view

Been experiencing many un-expected journey this few weeks. i'm not saying it's an adventure but surely it give me more attitude how to be bless with everything. As mentioned above "everything happens for the best" indeed reflect to me. Despite any harmful and hurtful incident that i'm aware off.

oh well, i never care so much about doubtful thought from people about me. What ever they say i have nothing against them .. let them be with their words. Their words against mine ... just giving them my attitude to know where to should i stand, that's what i called "happens for the best" i must have an attitude and i must be "unique" so people would aware i'm nothing like others. BEING ME IS WHAT MAKES ME UNIQUE :)

"show them where you stand!" that statement is surely developed a strong characters in me. if i'm not standing anywhere is not that i don't choose anything, i'm just making my own choice without following anyone, that's what i called "where do i stand".


so many people i've seen and i've known they're looking for something to stand. I mean they tried their hardest effort to be "seen". They've even becoming someone that they don't know, who they are because they are willing to be follower who will follow anything that could make them "someone'

so lame!

.. uncertain ..

It's been awhile ... again, i learn a lot from what i see, what i hear and what i said.
there's so many un-certainty for this life. now a days i see many person tried to be opportunist, and using the "situation" as their own defense. it's a shame .. (i guess) but well again people are born with different characteristic .. even myself is not perfect, so who am i expecting people to be perfect in front of me.

but, it won't do any harm if i judge other people characteristic which in my point of view is "annoying" .. i mean annoying for me .. never thought about others thou ...

some people have tendency to be so flexible .. a minute they acted like A then another second they can acted the other way around .. WHAT?! how can they be like that?? i'm amaze ... i don't how can i describe this kind of person.

Or, maybe they decided to "leave" then they realize is wrong they withdraw the decision .. and now they still want to be part of the group that they wanted to leave?? eehhmm is it because they don't have any "place" where people could accept them? or just simply they want the "group" to be flexible for them?

i even don't know how to put it in a word for this situation .. so many description on my head for this!

.. Status ..

Another word for this week, is CASTE which define a social class separated from others by distinctions of hereditary rank, profession, or wealth. Some people might enjoy their statu when they have the best position. Some people even have the un-appreciate attitude toward the un-furtonate people.

Honestly i can be so un-friendly with the person who has lower status than me if they act as if they have the same caste as mine. It surely bluntly there over my expression and my voice of tone. But, i will have good respect over people who humblely shown their caste subtlely. Not so many people might do that. It seems most of people are competing to be seen as 'fortunate' one. They bluff all the time, they have that snobbish attitude as if they were born that way.

For me, the caste can't fool anyone. Actually it's in their blood, they way you behave, talk, even say thing and of course the attitude. Even if you own a branded bag worth millions rupiah, it mean nothing if you have such an attitude like 'sh*t'...its show that you're in either caste at all. I feel sorry for people whose in the lower caste, for sure... but, i keep wondering what do they have in mind, what do they feel? How can they survive with their financial limitation? Are they happy? I bet those people will feel so much grateful instead of people whose dying to be 'seen' as the upper caste. I can guarantee that for sure!!!

.. Urge ..

Fourth word in this year, Urge=very strong desire.

I might not define it in correct way, i've got my own way to define any words in my own way :)
Why i came up with this word, because i feel this word is often used every time i will go travel or going to some places.

'can you buy .....' or 'can i order ...' it might sound like 'is it ok if you look for...' geez... I've been mentioned i hate when people giving me an order, and now people asking for a favor without giving me any option how to pay? Is not that i don't want to buy things for people; i love buying things for people, but i hate when people asking for it. And giving their preference ... If you're important to me i surely will buy you something .. Just don't ask, don't be demanding.

Unless you have something i want i would be fine, but if not don't expect i would give a sh*t about any less of you!!

.. Left over ..

leftover [ˈlɛftˌəʊvə] n
an unused portion or remnant.

Most of people will throw them away, because they don't want to eat the left over. Consideration is the taste and the appearance of it will not be as stunning as the first time.
If you asked me what will i do with my left over, well i will eat them i will put it on the microwave to heat it up and eat it while its still hot. Perhaps it taste not so good but well i fell blessed i still can taste it though.

X: What do you do with the flowers?
Y: You know the ones that nobody wants?
X: So you're giving them a second life?
Y: Yeah, most chaps throw them away. I like the idea that tomorrow somebody's going to see them floating by, wonder where they come from, behind the mystery of it all. I used to, actually, put them together and practice new designs with them and drop them off at a random doorstep with notes in it: "Somebody out there loves you". And they get to thinking, "What if they found out that somebody me? Would they want me to be the one that loves them?"
X: I would... want that.
-- Valentine's day --