.. the best of me ..

.. because ..

“A friend is someone with whom you dare to be yourself.”

I guess I didn't read the sign at all, I'm sure it must be so much more than this
cause I've never been so unhappy. Everything's wrong and backwards upside down.

It's hard for me to know the reality that you'll be sorry. And I don't wanna see you cry. No matter what I say, no matter what I do, you'll be sorry anyway.

It feels so wrong but it's right to tell you now .. "I feel you"

.. because ..

“A friend is someone with whom you dare to be yourself.”

I think what I have learned most is that… I’ll never be perfect. I’m not talking about just looks or things like that, but in every part of life, I’ll always be flawed. I’m sure a lot of girls feel that way too and I know that dudes do cause I live with a bunch of ‘em. The greatest feeling is knowing that I don’t have to be right.

.. burning out ..

I don't wanna take a step back, but I'm running on emptiness
Just let me let go, it's killing me in every way.

I just can't escape your ghost, the fire you started once is now burning out!
I just fade away, I can't find myself leaving
and it hurts with every breath I take, that I will never know the feeling ...
You take me in ...

Have you ever even noticed all the pain when you look into my eyes
Tell me, have you ever even thought about that I'm burning out

.. inception ..

"Did it ever occur to you that you’re so caught up in trying to make the right choice that you’ve never stopped to consider the possibility that there may not be a right choice, or a wrong choice, just a bunch of choices?"

Maybe, I've got it all wrong in the first place. How I tried to make everyone happy with my choices. Even though, most of time the choice that I made always bring me lots of confusion and un-comfortable feeling for myself (highlight on this ... MYSELF!)
I fully aware, most of the time people never thought about how I feel about the choices that I made (for them).

Sometime, I even have to lie about my choices. I need my selfishness to satisfy myself over something. I need my "me moment" I need to pleasuring myself, I want to appreciate myself with my own way.

Lucky me, I have a parents and family who can always give me those things. That's why I always enjoying my moment around them. They know exactly how to comfort me, with their way. I can just sit with my parents the whole day; watching TV, read some newspapers, gossiping, chatting, or even make fun of myself in front of them. I just love to see and hear the sincere voice from them.

The beginning of everything happened in my life, is all the beginning how I enter the social circle around me. I tried to make everyone happy and comfortable, but I never feel that they making me happy or comfortable.