.. delete ..

"I can't take this hurt any longer. I can't handle all the lies that came from him."

"Let it loose, munchkin. You're hurt even more, if you still trying to ignore all his lies."

"I'm trying to be fair with him. I care for him, that's what I do."

"Is he fair with you? Does he care for your feeling?"

"I don't know. Never though about that. Why should I care on that?"

"Munchkin, you can not always please other people for their own sake. You should taking care of your feeling as well you taking care of other."

"Will he be fine without me?"

"He's old enough to know which one is good one and which one is bad one, he doesn't need you to know the answer."

"I'm tired with everything that I carry, the lies, the hurt, the disappointment and the betrayed that he cause."

"You're to good for this kind of man, if he's looking for some cheesy girl that could fulfill his ego or his pride and also could satisfy his lust let him do it!"

"After what I did, can he just give me a little attention that he care?"

"He's just not that in to you, Munchkin. Why would you give your big effort to this kind of guy who can not even give you a little appreciation toward everything that you did for him."

"I'm smiling, even though I cried inside. I know him so well, I care for him, but it seems that he doesn't care."

"Munchkin, I know you. You never complain, you never grumbling, you never even have any demand on him. You're not expecting anything in return for every action that you did to him. That's why I said YOU'RE TO GOOD FOR THIS KIND OF MAN!"

"If he wants to hurt me, why he did this to me? What I ever done that made him hurt me this bad?"

"He just don't know how to keep good things in his life, Munchkin! He just don't know that he's throwing the best part."

" - sigh- "

"Everyone loves you, Munchkin. Don't waste your time with this kind of man who can not appreciate the good thing in you. You deserve someone better."

"I'm the one who keep hurting myself because I do care for this person."

"If you care enough with this person, you should know how to take care of yourself, Munchkin. Vanish him from your mind, delete him from heart, and start to maintain your own."

"I need sometime to recover with this feeling! I'm vulnerable."

.. take a bow ..

You look so dumb right now
Not even trying' to apologize
You're so ugly when you lie!
Please, just cut it out

And don't tell me you're not sorry 'cause you're not
when I know you're only sorry you got caught .. shame on you!

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining'
Go on and take a bow

This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on

And the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out

But it's over now...I should move on!

I really don't know how to handle all those lies!

.. confession ..

Here's the thing that I would like to tell you about ...

"I Love him ... I love him ... I do ... I don't care what people might think! I love him for the man he wants to be, and I love him for the man he almost is."

"Are you sure, he will be fair with you? He has to be fair with you, you love him ... if he doesn't love you, he got to let you know!"

"Well, I hate why love have to take a hard work."

"Hei, he's the one whose letting you in in his world and take control of it! At least he should show you his responsibilities on that."

"I'm the one who let him do that to me, aren't I?"

"You do it with his permission, if not I guarantee you're not that stupid to enter somebody life's."

"At least I could do something about it. I know it's not going to be easy with me, but at least I tried my best showing him I care. I'm exist no matter what, he had me at hello!"

"If you still have enough strength to hang on, do it! But, if you can hardly stand please released yourself from the hurt that he cause ok."

"He's a great guy, he's good. Even though it hurt me, I'm sure he has his own reason for that!"

"I have no idea why you still have that graceful think over him. He hurt you even worst each day!"

"I don't know, perhaps the hurt that he cause makes me stronger each day to face the faith that I will loose him someday."

"I love those smile on your face, even when you're hurt."

"Thank you, I keeping it for myself."

.. struggling ..

.. Lihat aku disini, kau lukai hati dan perasaan ini. Tapi entah mengapa aku bisa memberikan maaf kepadamu, mungkin karena cinta padamu tulus dari dasar hatiku.

Meski, kau terus sakiti aku cinta ini akan selalu memaafkan. Dan aku percaya nanti engkau, mengerti bila cintaku tak akan mati ..

.. Biar bintang tak datang, ku yakin hatiku hanya untuknya. Walau bintang menghilang ku sampaikan salam sayangku untuk mu. Meski mungkin aku yang harus pergi, tak apa tanpa harus ku mengerti.

Biar aku melangkah, menemani bintang, menerangi malam. Jangan resahkan aku, yang penting bahagia untuk dirinya.

Ku tak mengerti namun ku sadari, andai cinta tak datang haruskah ku jelang hampanya mimpiku, ketulusan cintaku biarlah terpendam di lubuk hatiku ..

.. alone ..

I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here, the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
I hope that it won't end though
Alone

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone

You don't know how long I have wanted
to touch your lips and hold you tight
You don't know how long I have waited
and I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
and my love for you is still unknown
Alone
(Alone - Heart)