Tuesday, May 5, 2015

.. i still ..


.. who are you now? are you still the same or did you change somehow?
what do you do at this very moment when i think of you? Do you remember that?

Can't deny it! Just can't let you go!


I still care about you, i still feel you .. but still no word from you.

Now look at me, instead of moving on, i refuse to see
I'm still stuck in a moment that wasn't meant to last

I've tried to fight it, can't deny it .. you don't even know!

Wish i could find you, then I would never let you go!

.. but still no word from you .. 



Monday, April 27, 2015

.. look before you leap ..

.. mencoba bertahan untuk tidak menulis apapun tentang segala sesuatu yang ada di sekeliling. tapi i couldn't help it ..

Ternyata mid-life crisis itu beneran ada ya, i thought it will only happens to older people (what i meant by older people are people in their mid 40's) it turns out people in their mid-30's experience the same thing.

Tadinya, gw berpikir bahwa itu hanyalah self actualisation dimana mereka butuh "pengakuan" di lingkungan sekitar bahwa mereka "existed" tapi ternyata tidak .. mereka juga butuh pengakuan atas achievement mereka dengan cara mereka sendiri. Well, if the tried to make themselves visible with a nice way i won't mind, most of them (yea .. most people i know) make them visible with (i don't know how would i describe it in polite way) .. *still have no clue*

ternyata dibalik semua achievement yang mereka raih, mereka bekerja extra keras untuk membayar semua tagihan kredit yang ada setiap bulannya, di balik semua branded stuff yang mereka pakai dan gunakan tak lain adalah hasil "opportunist" dari kado-kado yang mereka sudah ada wishlist nya ... dan ternyata tongkrongan di tempat-tempat hedonist pun tak luput dari gesekan yang menawarkan cicilan 3-6 bulan dengan bunga 0% .. OH MY!!!!

how can i not say a thing about this!!!

ternyata hidup untuk bisa "terlihat" itu berat yaa, padahal selama ini gw pikir menjadi terlihat tidak harus dengan usaha sebegitunya sih. Just be who you are and let people define you with your own character not by what you wear or what you can provide to the society!

*lesson learn*

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

.. happy ..



..

me: have we met?
him: eehhmm ... maybe
me: your face is familiar 
him: remind you of someone?
me: eehhmm... not really, but i just knew i've seen you somewhere
him: really..? 
me: yes .. but i'm not sure .. can't recall your face, but i can tell i've seen you before!
him: you're not trying hard enough to see me ..
me: am i?
him: ask yourself, what do you want? who you want to be ? and how it should be.
me: eehhmmm
him: see ... you're not even sure. 
me: ok.... i should try then!
him: see you .... in your dream! 

..

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

.. un-titled ..

.. hello ..

love,
-secret admirer- 

Monday, March 2, 2015

.. it happened (again) ..



.. it just happened! i don't know how and i don't know when, it just did!

and now i miss his smile, yes this person is un-expectedly come and give me this smile.

i can't even remember his voice, i can't picture him in my mind! trying to figure out his face in my mind so i can meet him in my dream ..