.. election ..

.. pemilu kali ini lain dari biasanya! Semua orang antusias semua orang bersuka cita. Tapi dari PEMILU kali ini semuanya udah kelewat batas! karena semua orang udah gak memakai akal sehat mereka. 2 calon ini sukses menyebarkan kebencian di seluruh Indonesia, timses mereka sukses mengadu domba masyarakat untuk saling membenci, mencela, mencaci maki dan memfitnah.
Dari kedua calon ini, kita di ajari untuk meng expose aib dari masing masing orang yang menghalangi. Kalau mau menggunakan common sense, masa iya sih seorang Presiden Indonesia punya aib? Masa iya kita rakyat Indonesia mau di pimpin oleh seorang pemimpin gak kertas hidupnya penuh tinta merah?

Saya tidak pernah tertarik membicarakan politik, apalagi di rumah karena biar sepintar apapun saya membicarakan politik di rumah saya gak pernah menang melawan Ibu dan Bapak saya walhasil bisa-bisa saya gak boleh menginjakkan kaki saya di rumah orang tua .. ya itu dia didikan orang tua saya mereka masih menganggap saya anak "sekolah" yang belum cukup umur utk menyuarakan pemikiran saya mengenai politik negara. Makanya saya lebih prefer membicarakan hal yang general sama kedua orang tua saya, seperti gosip artis ataupun cerita cerita tentang keluarga besar atau cerita tentang kakak-kakak saya maupun keponakan.

Tapi sekarang PEMILU ini mulai mengganggu saya, karena tidak ada hujan tidak ada angin, sudah 5 hari saya mendadak di diemin sama ayah dan ibu saya seolah saya melakukan kesalahan besar hingga menyebabkan damage dalam keluarga. Padahal saya tidak pernah membicarakan mengenai pilihan saya kepada mereka, dan saya tidak pernah mengutarakan keberatan saya atas kedua kandidat tersebut. Hanya karena BBG yang mengolok-ngolok calon juara Ibu saya, saya harus menanggung "kemarahan" ibu saya. Dan sepertinya Ibu saya tidak bisa menerima olok-olok tersebut dengan pikiran terbuka, beliau menelan bulat bulat olok-olok tersebut. Padahal kami  hanya sekedar beropini dalam canda, tidak bermaksud menyinggung siapapun di BBG itu.

Kalau sudah begini saya harus minta pertanggung jawaban ke sapa? Jokowi? atau Prabowo yang sudah sukses memecah belah rakyat Indonesia? Sampe ada quick count dengan sumber yang berbeda? bukan bukan karena masing masing tidak mau mengaku kalah or masing-masing claim kemenangan mereka bukan bukan itu ... tapi jika memang maksud mereka adalah menjadi Presiden Indonesia ke 7 dan bisa menyatukan rakyat Indonesia hal ini tidak akan terjadi ... semua saling dendam, semua saling mencaci, menyebar berita fitnah, menjelek-jelekkan satu sama lain .. mana bentuk keadilan sosial dari sila ke 5 Pancasila. Saya sebagai warga negara berhak untuk tahu kenapa perpecahan itu ada semenjak adanya pencalonan Jokowi dan Prabowo? Bukannya harusnya semua dilakukan dengan damai seperti pemilu 5 tahun lalu (SBY-Boediono) .

ini sudah kelewat batas, masing-masing timses tidak tau apa yang benar dan apa yang salah masing-masing punya cara sendiri untuk menang untuk membalas dendam masa lalu mereka. Entah sapa yang tersakiti siapa yang ter zholimi sehingga mereka mengguna bangsa indonesia sebagai wacana pembalasan sakit hati mereka.

Saya gak muluk-muluk saya hanya minta kembalikan Ibu saya yang dulu, yang bisa saya ajak bercanda di akhir pekan dan ngobrol tentang gosip celebrity dan mendengarkan celotehan anak pembantu kami dirumah dan tertawa bersama. Saya mau ibu saya yang dulu tanpa ada embel-embel dia terlalu fanatik sama salah satu calon sehingga membuat beliau menjadi tegang bila dirumah, dan semua serba salah di matanya ...

Siapapun presiden RI nantinya saya hanya minta Ibu saya kembali seperti dulu, dan bisa berkomunikasi dengan tenang bersama saya di akhir pekan itu saja. Is it to much to ask?

.. others ..

.. it happens a lot. Especially to people around me .. well, to me as well. Sometime i did something that people might hate it, in return they will (well un-purpose) do the same thing and i just know how it feel ...

Example! I don't know why, i often end up being "used" by my own friend i never know do they do it intentionally or un-intentionally. it sometime pissed me off, but i keep it in silence. I'm a person who avoid any drama of confrontation. they texted me and asked where i am, i answered the text by saying where i am and what i'm going to do .. then they initiate to join, with assumption i have to pick one up. (this part i don't mind) .. after i'm on my way to pick one up .. suddenly the text appear "can you pick me at my office lobby?" WHAT?! i told to that person "why don't i meet you at bus stop across your office??

Then we met, when the one get on my vehicle this person start to play with it phone? do i look like a taxi driver to you?? if you're my parents who's doing it i'm ok .. but, this person doesn't even have any contribution on this car .. that's just rude!! treating the owner of the car like taxi driver ... for me is un-polite! I don't even ask to share a gasoline with this person, how could this person do this! Then we continue to our next destination, i tried to be polite by having some conversation ... but it turns out this person can't get off from it's cell phone .. MY GODNESS!! it seems this person is the only one who own smartphone! Blaaaahhh ....

That moment, i made promise to myself, if this person ask me to hang out with the one, i will try to find some excuse not to be near this person. I'm not trying to make any drama, but i have my reason why i don't like people to treat me like that! I tried not to treat people like rubbish .. for me my smartphone is not my everything, real conversation is more meaningful for me rather than keeping your eyes on your display! What's on display is fake, real person is real one!

Question to myself .. can i treat them like they treat me??

.. selfishly ..

.. dapat mainan baru itu rasanya excited banget! ketemu orang baru, dengan karakter baru. Another observation time .. not to read about their character but more into challenge my capability in adapting with people.
Honestly i find myself a bit hard to adjust to new people. Somehow, between my brain and my mouth they will act differently. Jadi sebagian orang melihat gw seperti orang yang skeptis or sarcastic .. well, none of people that knows me told me that I'm judes sih .. they said i'm more into harsh using my words.

*sigh* actually i didn't have any intention to use those words or throw that things to people, i'm just trying to be me! I mean i say what i want it to say .. i'm not good in faking and i can't use any sweet words to please people .. as matter of fact i can't please people .. i can't even please my parents, so how can i please people?

I treat people the same way i treat my family .. well, if my family got special service from me, i have blood connection with them. I've been tied to them 'till death (do us part) .. Karena perlakuan ini gw terapin dari semenjak gw kecil, how i treat people is been there all along. I mean this is me, this is who I am .. nothing change. Well, i make some adjustment along the way (since, i'm getting older right?) try to be more mature and wiser to all my actions.

Hipotesa yang bisa gw tarik adalah, actions do reflect to who you are! dan those attitude can't hide from which level you're coming from .. dan itu beneran tercermin dari how people treat you and who you are in the past .. jadi misalnya waktu dulu jaman sekolah (SD, SMP, SMA sampe kuliah) kalian di treat as if you're no body ... than you will become a**hole in the present. Karena you're looking for an acceptance that "NOW, I'm somebody!" oh well, if in the past you're no body and you're become a bitch in the future .. for me those people still NO ONE!! karena buat gw, if you have problem with your attitude meaning you're a mess in the future .. as simple as that.

I've been raised well enough by my parents, have lots of learning from them. life experience and also self healing from them. They taught me to be a person with attitude and manner, they never stop remind me to be a better person for people ...

So, in all for me is better to be who am i in front of people rather than to be somebody that i'm to please people.

for me .. personal ambition or personal existence it has nothing to do with other people. that's your problem with yourself .. not with other. to achieve your personal ambition and existence you don't need to hurt people especially if that person is your friend! it just rude ...  i mean, i couldn't even think how can you hurt your own friend?? eehhmm ...

.. signing out ..

.. finally i'm going to continue my journey!
excited to welcoming new HELLO new challenge and new adventure! ..

.. limited ..

.. i had enough, now i know i have my own limit. i've been drown to my lowest level. i keep my silence not because i don't want to fight is because why would i fight people who's not in my lever of intelligence? such a waste!

from the first i knew it, there never a plan for me, there's nothing that one can do to improve me as one employee. why would i shout and confront if i know exactly there's no written plan for me in the first place? i'm the one who choose to be part of this what they called "games" .. screw!!

i once confront, but the answer .. it didn't even close to what i have in mind as a leader! NONE! i mean what asked and what one answered is not even close! oh well .. i can blame one intelligence on this thou .. i know exactly where did i stand right? but, lucky me i've been raised well by the great family and i've been surrounded by the best people around me .. 

God knows i may not be a good person, i may not be a good employee but God give me a chance to be appreciate by others .. and I thank God because of this! Hope it will went well through everything!