.. deep thought ..

"I think I’m afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens"

.. simply the best ..

No matter how frightened and discouraged I may become about the future, I look forward to it. In spite of everything I see all around me every day, I have a shaky assurance that everything will turn out fine; and I don’t think I’m the only one. Why else would the phrase “Everything is alright” ease a troubled place in so many of us? We just don’t know, we never know, yet we have so much faith. We hold our hands over our hurts and lean forward. It is how we keep on, this kind of hope.

When things go wrong, you’ll find they usually go on getting worse for some time; but when things once start going right they often go on getting better and better -- The Chronicles of Narnia

.. ordinary boy ..

Just a day,
Just an ordinary day.
Just trying to get by.
Just a boy,
Just an ordinary boy.
But he was looking to the sky.
And as he asked if I would come along
I started to realize
That everyday he finds
Just what he's looking for,
Like a shooting star he shines.

And He said take my hand,
Live while you can
Don't you feel your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
And you'd swear those words couldn't heal.
And as I looked up into those eyes
His vision borrows mine.
And I know he's no stranger,
For I feel I've held him for all of time.

Please come with me,
See what I see.
Touch the stars for time will not flee.
Time will not flee.
Can you see?

Just a dream, just an ordinary dream.
As I wake in bed
And the boy, that ordinary boy
Or was it all in my head?
Did he asked if I would come along
It all seemed so real.
But as I looked to the door,
I saw that boy standing there with a deal.

Just a day, just an ordinary day
Just trying to get by.
Just a boy,
Just an ordinary boy.
But he was looking to the sky.

-- Ordinary Day-Vanessa Carlton --

.. ascertain ..

I’ve learned a lot this year.. I learned that things don’t always turn out the way I planned, or the way I think they should. And I’ve learned that there are things that go wrong that don’t always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. I’ve learned that some broken things stay broken, and I’ve learned that I can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as I have people who love me.

I've learned that some friends sometime will turn out to "use" me for their sake, without considering how I feel and how it will effect my feeling.

“People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they’re not on your road doesn’t mean they’ve gotten lost.” - Dalai Lama -

So, based on what I've learned .. I can conclude that I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something. And because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something that I can do.

.. talk to me ..

A word that come up from my mind "Love yourself, accept yourself, forgive yourself and be good to yourself, because without you the rest of us are without a source of many wonderful things" I heard this words, but I can't remember who said it. But is true thou. Everything that happened in our live, will based on what we did, what we gave and what we wish for.

If we can't accept who we are, forgive every mistakes that we did and can't love ourself how can God knows what's good from us in front of God, doesn't it? God create us with purposed, God have it's own plan toward our lives, of course God always have a good reasons for everything that happened in our lives. If we can't be graceful how can God be good to us?