" A friend once told me, a relationship without honesty would not enjoy freedom. It would eventually sour. "
" Overcome of your misgiving and you'll experience openness and freedom. "
" There's a broad definition for honesty and lie, it just has to be understood by a single meaning. "
Thing have started changing, but I don't want to think about it. I just want to cherish this moment. Even though friendship is already abandoned by a girl.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
.. battlefield ..
Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love and suddenly
It's like a battle-field
One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now
Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
These times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like ...
a battlefield
Why does love always feel like ...
this
Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender
then we both gonna lose what we had,
Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
You better go and get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
We could pretend that we are friends tonight
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like
A battlefield
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know What we're fighting for
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love and suddenly
It's like a battle-field
One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now
Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
These times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like ...
a battlefield
Why does love always feel like ...
this
Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag
If we can't surrender
then we both gonna lose what we had,
Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
You better go and get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor
We could pretend that we are friends tonight
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like
A battlefield
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know What we're fighting for
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
.. vicinity ..
" I hate to see you like this. "
" Gw gpp kok, get used with this kind of feeling. "
Sahabat yang selalu ada, dan datang di saat yang emang tepat. Teman kecil yang datang dan pergi, selalu datang di saat gw gak pernah berharap dia akan datang. Lalu, dia akan pergi ketika gw sendiri gak tau kapan dia pamitan.
" Inget gak waktu gw baru putus sama cewek gw? Yang gw impulsively pergi ke Bandung dan pas sampe Cipularang km 55 gw gak bisa nyetir lagi? "
" Iya tuh .. makanya gw setiap lewat cipularang km 55 itu kaya dejavu gitu, yang gw di anterin ke sana itu kan? "
" Padahal waktu itu loe lagi pacaran kan? "
" Hahaha "
Gw tertawa lepas ketika itu, rasanya udah lama banget gw gak bisa tertawa lepas di depan orang-orang. Tertawa bisa gw lakukan, tetapi tidak selepas sekarang.
" You always spare your time for most of your friends. No matter what no matter how, you're always there; your presence is very comforting for all of your friends. "
" No lah .. Gw hanya berusaha menjadi orang baik utk orang yang baik juga dalam hidup gw. You know my motto kan? What goes around comes around. "
" Tapi sekarang ini, kebanyakan orang-orang di sekitar loe memanfaatkan kebaikan yang sudah loe perlihatkan, they abused your kindness. "
" Gw gak merasa di abuse kok, ya kadang kan ekspektasi orang gak bisa kita kendalikan. Is beyond our capacity to control others people mind. "
" Tapi kan setidak orang-orang baru disekitar loe bisa melihat dan bisa membaca, kalo loe bukan type teman yang opportunist. "
" Hahaha " tertawa getir yang keluar dari mulut gw.
Orang ini yang selalu memberikan masukan pedas dan sinis setiap kali dia muncul di depan gw. Sosok ini yang selalu "menampar" gw tanpa di minta, dia yang gak pernah cape "menendang" gw ketika gw sudah malas melangkah, dan "menarik" gw ketika gw tertidur di setiap effort yang gw lakuin di hidup gw.
" Ya kalo orang mau jahat sama gw, ya biarin aja. Artinya emang dari awal dia main sama gw kan udah ada niat jahat? Nah, kalo niatan itu udah ada masa iya bisa gw baca dari awal sih? "
" Ya gak gitu juga, loe harus lebih sensitif melihat sisi opportunist orang dong. Jangan naive melihat segala sesuatu dari kacamata positif. "
" Duuhh.. hidup itu kan ya udah banyak masalah dan konflik, kalo masih harus mikir negatif sama semua yang main sama gw, hidup gw tersiksa banget gak? "
" Gak harus negatif tp waspada sama sekeliling. Loe kadang suka gak bisa ngebaca itu. "
" Ya kan dari sekian banyak orang yang main sama gw, paling hanya satu dua orang yang opportunist kan? Nah, ntaran juga akan keliatan kok mana yang bisa gw keep dan mana yang harus gw ditch dari lingkungan gw kan? "
" Lucky you, you have that sense. "
" Bukan gitu, bukan sixth sense yang gw punya, tp gw yakin Tuhan gak mau gw di kelilingi orang-orang jahat. "
" Agreed! "
As for me .. Good people, bad people they all my friends! I do believe even bad people still got the good in them, because God create Good People not bad people in this world. The things that turned them to be a bad people because of the pressure, experience, and also the incidents that happened in their life!
I'm not blaming anyone who treat me bad, I just keep the pray the good in them will bring them back to be a good people. People do change, so am I!
" Gw gpp kok, get used with this kind of feeling. "
Sahabat yang selalu ada, dan datang di saat yang emang tepat. Teman kecil yang datang dan pergi, selalu datang di saat gw gak pernah berharap dia akan datang. Lalu, dia akan pergi ketika gw sendiri gak tau kapan dia pamitan.
" Inget gak waktu gw baru putus sama cewek gw? Yang gw impulsively pergi ke Bandung dan pas sampe Cipularang km 55 gw gak bisa nyetir lagi? "
" Iya tuh .. makanya gw setiap lewat cipularang km 55 itu kaya dejavu gitu, yang gw di anterin ke sana itu kan? "
" Padahal waktu itu loe lagi pacaran kan? "
" Hahaha "
Gw tertawa lepas ketika itu, rasanya udah lama banget gw gak bisa tertawa lepas di depan orang-orang. Tertawa bisa gw lakukan, tetapi tidak selepas sekarang.
" You always spare your time for most of your friends. No matter what no matter how, you're always there; your presence is very comforting for all of your friends. "
" No lah .. Gw hanya berusaha menjadi orang baik utk orang yang baik juga dalam hidup gw. You know my motto kan? What goes around comes around. "
" Tapi sekarang ini, kebanyakan orang-orang di sekitar loe memanfaatkan kebaikan yang sudah loe perlihatkan, they abused your kindness. "
" Gw gak merasa di abuse kok, ya kadang kan ekspektasi orang gak bisa kita kendalikan. Is beyond our capacity to control others people mind. "
" Tapi kan setidak orang-orang baru disekitar loe bisa melihat dan bisa membaca, kalo loe bukan type teman yang opportunist. "
" Hahaha " tertawa getir yang keluar dari mulut gw.
Orang ini yang selalu memberikan masukan pedas dan sinis setiap kali dia muncul di depan gw. Sosok ini yang selalu "menampar" gw tanpa di minta, dia yang gak pernah cape "menendang" gw ketika gw sudah malas melangkah, dan "menarik" gw ketika gw tertidur di setiap effort yang gw lakuin di hidup gw.
" Ya kalo orang mau jahat sama gw, ya biarin aja. Artinya emang dari awal dia main sama gw kan udah ada niat jahat? Nah, kalo niatan itu udah ada masa iya bisa gw baca dari awal sih? "
" Ya gak gitu juga, loe harus lebih sensitif melihat sisi opportunist orang dong. Jangan naive melihat segala sesuatu dari kacamata positif. "
" Duuhh.. hidup itu kan ya udah banyak masalah dan konflik, kalo masih harus mikir negatif sama semua yang main sama gw, hidup gw tersiksa banget gak? "
" Gak harus negatif tp waspada sama sekeliling. Loe kadang suka gak bisa ngebaca itu. "
" Ya kan dari sekian banyak orang yang main sama gw, paling hanya satu dua orang yang opportunist kan? Nah, ntaran juga akan keliatan kok mana yang bisa gw keep dan mana yang harus gw ditch dari lingkungan gw kan? "
" Lucky you, you have that sense. "
" Bukan gitu, bukan sixth sense yang gw punya, tp gw yakin Tuhan gak mau gw di kelilingi orang-orang jahat. "
" Agreed! "
As for me .. Good people, bad people they all my friends! I do believe even bad people still got the good in them, because God create Good People not bad people in this world. The things that turned them to be a bad people because of the pressure, experience, and also the incidents that happened in their life!
I'm not blaming anyone who treat me bad, I just keep the pray the good in them will bring them back to be a good people. People do change, so am I!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
.. banter ..
BG: You've fallen for him.
SB: I know .. I realized it a long time ago. I also realized the truth, but I refused to face reality.
BG: Why don't you counter him for what he did to you? Breaking his promises, used you and betraying for his own sake?
SB: Well, I always know that love is selfish. When I worked so hard for him, he feel pain too.But, I'm not going to blame anyone for this matters. In fact, I should thankful to that girls, if that girls hadn't spurred me on and given me a chance to work hard for him, perhaps I won't accepted my fate, show my calmness and give up.
BG: But, you've been improving to show that you care.
SB: There's only one thing that could win him over, and that thing I can't do. I won't do it for any reasons.
BG: You are what you are. That's what we like from you, no matter what you still keep that value in you!
SB: It's because I have such a friend like you guys! Thank you, guys!
(UnderGround SUSHI - April, 27th: 19.25wib - 21.40wib)
SB: I know .. I realized it a long time ago. I also realized the truth, but I refused to face reality.
BG: Why don't you counter him for what he did to you? Breaking his promises, used you and betraying for his own sake?
SB: Well, I always know that love is selfish. When I worked so hard for him, he feel pain too.But, I'm not going to blame anyone for this matters. In fact, I should thankful to that girls, if that girls hadn't spurred me on and given me a chance to work hard for him, perhaps I won't accepted my fate, show my calmness and give up.
BG: But, you've been improving to show that you care.
SB: There's only one thing that could win him over, and that thing I can't do. I won't do it for any reasons.
BG: You are what you are. That's what we like from you, no matter what you still keep that value in you!
SB: It's because I have such a friend like you guys! Thank you, guys!
(UnderGround SUSHI - April, 27th: 19.25wib - 21.40wib)
Friday, April 24, 2009
.. falling ..
Feels like my life's been passing by
With happiness just being a lie
How did I get here, where am I going?
One more day without knowing
Struggling for one more breath
As I'm drowning in a painful death
Can someone reach out for me?
In this dark and dreary sea
'Cause it seems like no one can
Hear the voice that's calling
Try to take the most I can stand
But I keep falling
I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
'Cause I'm stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don't lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more
In my isolating misery
I feel like the epitome
Of darkness and despair
Just leading onto nowhere
Will I be able to win this race?
I'm running at a slow pace
Trying hard to press on
But the motivation's gone
It may not have to be this way
Waiting for me they could be a new day
Maybe I can revise
And escape from the lies
There could be something more
To what my life may have in store
I'll move from where I began
Keep on pressing through to the end
With happiness just being a lie
How did I get here, where am I going?
One more day without knowing
Struggling for one more breath
As I'm drowning in a painful death
Can someone reach out for me?
In this dark and dreary sea
'Cause it seems like no one can
Hear the voice that's calling
Try to take the most I can stand
But I keep falling
I try to chase the memories away
But they haunt me everyday
I hope I get over this phase
'Cause I'm stuck inside this haze
All I need is a simple lift
Such a sweet and precious gift
So I don't lose it all before
What I have left is nothing more
In my isolating misery
I feel like the epitome
Of darkness and despair
Just leading onto nowhere
Will I be able to win this race?
I'm running at a slow pace
Trying hard to press on
But the motivation's gone
It may not have to be this way
Waiting for me they could be a new day
Maybe I can revise
And escape from the lies
There could be something more
To what my life may have in store
I'll move from where I began
Keep on pressing through to the end
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