.. in God hands ..

I looked at your face I saw that all the love had died
I saw that we had forgotten to take the time
I, I saw that you couldn't care less about what you do
You couldn't care less about the lies
You couldn't find the time to cry

We forgot about love
We forgot about faith
We forgot about trust
We forgot about us

Now our love's floating out the window
Our love's floating out the back door
Our love's floating up in the sky in heaven
Where it began back in God's hands

You said that you had said all that you had to say
You said baby it's the end of the day
And we gave a lot but it wasn't enough
We got so tired that we just gave up

We didn't respect it
We went and neglected it
We didn't deserve it
But I never expected this

It's part of a plan
It's back in God's hands
Back in God's hands

It didn't last
It's a thing of the past
No we didn't understand
Just what we had
I want it back
Just what we had

(Nelly Furtado Feat. Keith Urban)

.. maturity ..

I've learned that I can not make someone loves me. All I can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.
I've learned no matter how much I care, some people are just asshole.

I've learned that it takes years, to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof to destroy it.
I've learn that I can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I've learned that I shouldn't compare myself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.
I've learned that I can keep vomiting long after I think I'm finished.

I've learned that I am responsible for what I do, unless I am celebrities.
I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place!

I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in my house, one of my nieces or nephews did it.
I've learned that people I care most about in life are taken to soon from my life to soon and all the less important ones just never go away ...

.. andai dia tahu ..

... Kejujuran itu seperti es krim, kalau tidak di lahap bakalan cepet meleleh hilang di telan hawa panas. Bisep di tangan itu kan otot fisik, nah kejujuran itu otot mental dan otot harus di latih terus biar kuat. Untuk hari ini latihan kejujuran gw, adalah jujur pada diri sendiri. Gue takut, takut kalau intuisi gw mengenai banyak hal salah. Gw takut, takut ketika gw bangun besok matahari gak terbit di timur, atau gimana kalau gw bangun besok dan tau kalau ternyata hati bisa salah ..

.. trustworthy ..

... I don't know rather he fall with my life, but I decided to give myself a chance to be. Maybe true love is a decision, a decision to take a chance with somebody, giving to somebody without worrying rather that somebody will give anything in return, or their going to hurt me, or if they really are the one. Perhaps love is something that I have to choose ...

And I choose to fall with his life.

..take a bow..

.. I just believe in something for what behind of them own, as my hope in love. Is never to late too much, to notice the one that is important in my life and to struggle for that, even I don't know what to fight for. I do believe everyday in my life can be a miracle ..